Have you ever been pushed to the limit? Someone pushing your buttons? I guess we’ve all been there. I can’t take much drama these days, and God forbid if someone gets on my last nerve or makes me feel cornered. To quote Bill Bixby’s Incredible Hulk, “You won’t like me when I’m angry!” This older song by Drowning Pool always come to mind and then stays there when I’m at my limit. Let the bodies hit the floor!!
If you’re like me, you’re looking for something to watch since you’re spending more time at home. Maybe you want crime-drama, something quirky, or something to tickle your funny bone. We could all use suggestions from time to time, don’t you think? I’ve put together a short list of some shows you may (or may not) enjoy. It just depends on your own personal tastes. I hope this list is helpful to someone!
Prodigal Son – This show is amazing! It stars Tom Payne (The Walking Dead’s Jesus) and Michael Sheen (Underworld, Good Omens). Payne’s character, Malcolm Bright, is the son of Martin Whitley, famous surgeon and serial killer dad (Sheen) who is in prison for his gruesome crimes. Malcolm is a forensic profiler, working with the NYPD. Could Malcolm be just like his father? Renewed for Season 2.
Threesome – A silly but hilarious show from the UK. Threesome had me in stitches! Three best friends (one girl, two guys – one is gay) end up in a drunken threesome while partying. Girl gets pregnant and craziness and laughter follow as they try to navigate through the situation. From 2011. Sadly, only 2 seasons.
The Neighborhood – I never cared much for Cedric the Entertainer but he’s hilarious in this show. With a wife, and 2 dumb as hell sons, they try to navigate the weirdness of having white neighbors in their black neighborhood. The thing is, the white neighbors are oblivious to how things are in the ‘hood and try way too hard at times to fit in. Renewed for Season 3.
Hunters – Outstanding! I didn’t think I’d like this show due to the subject matter. Hunters takes place in the 70’s and focuses on a group of Nazi Hunters; Jews who are ready to get their revenge and justice. The gang quickly discover a new conspiracy boiling. With a serious plot twist at the end of the first season, that I didn’t see coming, it will leave you wanting the next season NOW! Based on true events. Stars Al Pacino.
Killing Eve – I never watched this show on tv but was desperate for something different to watch on Netflix. Well, I found it. Killing Eve is definitely different! And quirky as hell. An MI5 security officer chases a young, intelligent female assassin, which leads to some violent scenes and odd situations. Stars Sandra Oh and Jodie Comer. 3 seasons; I have yet to see Season 3.
Six Feet Under – A friend of mine suggested this series. It’s quite a few years old (2001-2005) but I really enjoyed watching this show’s very screwed up family trying to run a funeral home after the patriarch of the family dies. Many comical situations, dysfunctional people at best, and very adult situations. 5 seasons. Stars Michael C. Hall. (Dexter)
Yellowstone – I’ve only just started this series; it’s a great story so far and is well acted. Kevin Costner plays the patriarch of a ranching family fighting with modern developers and the Native Americans wanting their land back. The family members all have a story of their own. Don’t let the sexually overt daughter put you off; there’s a story to be told. Currently airing Season 3.
Have you seen any of these shows? What are your thoughts? It’s really hard for me to find shows to watch most of the time. I don’t like romance, romance-comedy, superhero/villains, anime, westerns (for the most part), or horror movies. It makes things a bit more complicated…not to mention time consuming! I spend way too much time trying to find shows to watch, so if you have suggestions for me, lay ’em on me!! Please and thank you!
I started this blog way back in 2008. It was a way for me to express myself through the turmoil that had just begun. It was therapeutic.
It has always been difficult for me to express myself verbally. I attribute that to the fact that my mother stifled me every chance she got. My opinion wasn’t important. My feelings didn’t matter. I was the child and children were to be seen and not heard.
Into adulthood, my ex treated me just about the same way. I found myself having to explain what I meant at every turn. I learned to keep my mouth shut. It was just easier than having to explain myself constantly. I think that’s what he was aiming for anyway. That was his way of stifling me like my mother always did.
So, anyway…. 2008 began with a series of events that became even more troubling as time went on. I needed an outlet. I had to do something to keep myself from going bonkers. I started writing. I hadn’t started seeing my therapist yet; that came a few years later. I think Dr. M would be very proud of me taking this blog to another level, stepping out of my comfort zone. Being Aunt Debbie has always been public, but I never advertised or shared it, except with a few choice people. I am definitely out of my comfort zone!
In July, I decided to share, share, share. I decided to let Google index my blog. I started interacting with other bloggers; I commented on their blogs, and in turn, I received a very warming acceptance. I received comments on my posts. I even started a Facebook page to pair with my blog. It has been a positive experience, for the most part.
The part that isn’t positive is when I receive confrontational comments on my posts, which have nothing to do with the post. Let me just say that I don’t do confrontational. This is MY blog. So, only MY drama is allowed. I don’t have time for your BS. Don’t like my blog? Don’t read it. Don’t like my attitude? Don’t follow me; not on WordPress, not on Facebook, not on Instagram.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not always right. My opinions differ at times. I can handle a discussion about different topics, even when opinions differ. What I can’t handle….no, what I won’t handle is YOUR attitude if you come off confrontational. I’m not trying to be a bitch. I’m just keeping it real. Real simple. Be nice or go home.
The last 5 years have been extremely trying. I’ve had to deal with more than I ever imagined I would, and at times thought it would never get better. I spent hours upon hours upon hours crying my eyes out. I have felt helpless, and hopeless. I’ve felt anger and sadness. I’ve suffered through many panic attacks and raging depression. After a couple years trying to pull myself up with not much success, I began seeing a therapist. With her help, I learned a lot about myself, and other people.
My therapist has helped me make sense of much of what I was feeling. With her guidance, and my hard work to meet her challenges, I can finally say that my life is getting back on track. I don’t think I could have done it without her help. You may think these things are a “no brainer” but when you have been raised a certain way, treated a certain way, and had to deal with so many issues, it tends to overwhelm a person!! You sometimes lose yourself while trying to process things, and some things are shoved under the rug because they are too hard to deal with.
Some of the things I have learned along the way are:
*I have learned that the guilt and shame that I carried for so long, was NOT mine to carry. I am not responsible for the actions of others, and I have made peace with events of the past.
*I have learned to set limits and create boundaries. Just as I don’t allow just anyone to come into my house, I cannot allow just anyone to enter my mind, and my life and drain me of my energy or place unwanted expectations on me. I do not have to allow negativity from others to bring me down. I do NOT have to engage in their drama.
*I have been a caregiver for all of my adult life. I have always put everyone else’s needs above my own. I put my needs on the back burner, thinking they were not important. I have learned that it’s not selfish for me to take care of ME! My needs are just as important as anyone else’s!
*I am a logical thinker. I’ve learned that if I can’t make sense of something, in my mind it’s hogwash. I get along with those who are like-minded. I don’t mix well with people who do not think for themselves. I don’t understand people who follow anything blindly.
*I’ve learned that there are certain people whom I cannot help simply because they won’t help themselves. I can’t keep throwing them a rope and letting them pull ME under! Some people are emotional vampires, draining you of all the energy you have. It’s ok to take a step back (or several) and protect yourself! I know I don’t have to let them drain me anymore! (This goes back to setting limits and creating boundaries, as mentioned earlier in this post.)
*I’ve learned that my thoughts, my opinions are just as important as anyone else’s. All through my childhood, my mother stifled me. I was ridiculed for voicing my opinion, for asking questions, and for asking for what I needed for ME. I may still keep my mouth shut at times (because even though I have the right to say it, doesn’t mean I should) but I no longer let the fear of what others think, keep me from using my voice.
*I’ve learned that I can forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made in my life. We aren’t handed an instruction book when we first venture out on our own, when we enter a new relationship, or when we begin having children. We have no clue how to do it, but yet we figure it out along the way! We make mistakes. Sometimes the mistakes are small and sometimes they are huge, but we learn as we go and we have to forgive ourselves for the mistakes we have made or we will drown in the “shoulda-woulda-coulda” mentality.
*I’ve learned that others will never understand my chronic pain if they have never experienced chronic pain themselves. I can explain until my head explodes but they won’t understand that I can’t do the things they think I should be able to do. They don’t SEE anything wrong with me, so they think I’m just lazy. They can’t see how tired I am, how much I hurt, or that I’d just like to crawl in a cave and never come out again. I don’t have to explain anymore. I’m good with whatever they think about me. I just pray that they never have to experience chronic pain themselves! (If you need to understand chronic pain, a good place to start is with “The Spoon Theory.” Google it. There is no better way to understand than this.)
And last, and I am definitely not finished learning….
*I’ve learned that you just can’t fix stupid!! I get so irritated with people doing stupid and inconsiderate things that I could just pull my hair out! I am still working on this one, but I’m getting better at just letting it go!! I let things get to me too easily sometimes. It seriously affects my mood when someone pulls out in front of me on a busy road, or when someone zips through a parking lot right behind me, even though I’m already half way out of my parking spot, or when a group of people are having a “reunion” of sorts in the store blocking the entire width of the aisle. When you approach, they turn and see you but still make no effort to move over so you can pass through! UGH. I could go on and on….. These things aggravate me to no end. I always try to be courteous and watch for others around me when I’m out and about. I know they have things to do just as I do. So, why don’t they behave the same way?
All in all, my life may be a bit difficult but I am moving forward. I continue to see my therapist and work on my issues. I use to think “I will never see a shrink because I can’t talk to a stranger about personal things! That’s what friends and family are for!” Well, I was wrong for thinking this way. Yes, it’s good to talk to friends and family but some things are too deep and personal to share with them! Sometimes, a complete stranger can see things more clearly. A trained therapist can actually help you figure things out!
Being Aunt Debbie 