Sleep Eludes Me

5am. I’m up. I can’t say that I’ve awakened because I never went to sleep.

It’s bad enough I have chronic pain that keeps me from doing the things I have enjoyed all of my life. To grieve that loss is depressing but to now have restful slumber taken away is almost unbearable. My only solace is that I can take a 2 or 3-hour nap this afternoon.

It’s getting old. Night after night. I go to bed when I’m sleepy. Some nights I’m sleepy at midnight, some nights it doesn’t come until 1 or 2am. I STILL toss and turn (not really, mobility issues and all) until nearly 5am before I fall asleep. Not this morning. I was so sick and tired of lying there, not sleeping… I just threw the covers back and got out of bed.

I have tried over-the-counter sleep aids, teas specifically for sleep, breathing exercises and meditation, and multiple other little things to help me get my restful night. Nothing seems to freakin’ help. My body and mind alike need to rest!

My therapist says that during our lifetime, our sleep patterns change and perhaps we won’t always need 8 hours of sleep each night. I can accept that. I would be happy with just 5 hours of restful and restorative sleep, but to not have any sleep at all? It’s just nuts.

My days are long and boring the way it is since I can’t do the things I’d really like to do. I’m in pain and pain is exhausting! Sleep has always been my refuge. When asleep, I didn’t have to think about the pain. There was no depression. Sleep was an escape from the reality of my life.


What do you do when you can’t sleep?


My Top 10 Favorite Movies

When I started this list I thought, “Oh, that should be easy!” Nope. Not easy at all. So, here’s my Top 15 Favorite Movies…..

NOPE. That’s not going to work either.

Top 20?

NOPE. Final offer. Top 25 Favorite Movies – and these are NOT in any particular order. These are just great movies that I have watched over and over again. I couldn’t possibly put them in numerical order!

Please note, these are MY favorite movies. They do not have to be movies YOU like, because…well, they are MY favorite movies, not yours. Just wanted to clear that up since there are so many folks who don’t like when others think for themselves.

  • The Godfather1972 Starring Al Pacino, Marlon Brando. A great mob saga!
  • Braveheart1995 Starring Mel Gibson. The story of William Wallace, the 13th-century Scottish patriot. Well done considering so much had to fit in a mere 3-hour movie!
  • Dances With Wolves1990 Starring Kevin Costner. A Civil War soldier befriends the Lakota Indians and leaves his old life behind.
  • To Kill A Mockingbird1962 Starring Gregory Peck. Growing up in 1930’s south, depression-era, amongst great prejudice.
  • The Goonies1985 Starring Sean Astin, Josh Brolin, Corey Feldman. A group of misfit kids run into criminals, find a pirate’s treasure and save a family’s home.
  • The Breakfast Club1985 Starring Molly Ringwald, Judd Nelson, Emilio Estevez. A group of high school students spend Saturday detention together and find out how much they really have in common.
  • Close Encounters of the Third Kind1977 Starring Richard Dreyfuss, Teri Garr. A man experiences strange occurrences and is drawn to follow the clues to find out what it all means.
  • E.T. The Extra-Terrestrial1982 Starring Drew Barrymore, Dee Wallace, Henry Thomas. Kids help a friendly alien escape humans and return to his home planet.
  • Angels With Dirty Faces1938 Starring James Cagney, Pat O’Brien. A priest tries to persuade a gangster to not lead a group of misfits down the same path.
  • The African Queen1951 Starring Humphrey Bogart, Katherine Hepburn. During WWI a riverboat captain and a prim & proper missionary collide.
  • Planes, Trains, & Automobiles1987 Starring John Candy, Steve Martin. A man is forced to travel with an annoying and obnoxious slob.
  • The Birds1963 Starring Rod Taylor, Tipi Hedren. A Hitchcock thriller, a story of birds that attack.
  • Benny & Joon1993 Starring Johnny Depp, Mary Stuart Masterson, Aiden Quinn. A story of mental illness, eccentricity, and love.
  • What’s Eating Gilbert Grape?1993 Starring Johnny Depp, Leonardo DiCaprio. Growing up with the challenges of mental illness, and the responsibilities of taking care of the family.
  • Stand By Me1986 Starring Wil Wheaton, River Phoenix, Corey Feldman. A writer tells the story of how he and his buddies found a dead body when they were kids.
  • The Color Purple1985 Starring Danny Glover, Whoopi Goldberg, Oprah Winfrey. A black southern woman overcomes abuse and finds herself.
  • One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest1975 Starring Jack Nicholson, Louise Fletcher. An overbearing nurse and rebellion in a mental institution.
  • Whatever Happened To Baby Jane?1962 Starring Bette Davis, Joan Crawford. A sinister and former child star torments her crippled, more famous sister.
  • Frankenstein: The True Story1973 Starring James Mason, Michael Sarrazin, Leonard Whiting. Although you know the story of Frankenstein, this story will tug at your heartstrings.
  • The Wizard of Oz1939 Starring Judy Garland, Ray Bolger, Margaret Hamilton. A tornado carries a young girl and her dog off to the land of Oz.
  • The Sound of Music1965 Starring Julie Andrews, Christopher Plummer. A young woman leaves a convent to care for a widowed man’s children, who are hard to handle but so very talented!
  • Psycho1960 Starring Anthony Perkins, Janet Leigh. A remote motel is run by a young man under the rule of his mother.
  • Alien1979 Starring Sigourney Weaver, Tom Skerritt, John Hurt. A space vessel hears a distress signal from another vessel and they investigate, only to find out an alien being is also aboard the craft.
  • The Lost Boys1987 Starring Jason Patric, Corey Haim, Corey Feldman. Brothers find out that the town they have just moved to is inhabited by vampires.
  • Legends of The Fall1994 Starring Brad Pitt, Anthony Perkins, Aiden Quinn. The story of 3 brothers and their father in Montana through love, war, and betrayal.


I’m sensing a theme with this list! I seem to be drawn to movies about misfits, criminals, and mental illness! Yikes! I also notice the years of these movies fall between 1938 and 1995. Are there other great movies before, during, and after those years? Of course! I know I have left out some great ones, but I was lucky enough to decide which ones go on this list!

What are your favorite movies? Do we have any faves in common?

Friday’s Funnies – My Faves This Week

Time for Friday’s Funnies! I’ll start out with a little funny-ha-ha from my outing with Dad today! Enjoy!

Dad and I went to Mountain Grove today to buy a new DVD player. Afterward, we stopped at Los Amigos for a quick bite to eat. We’ve been there many times before and the food is really good, but I never noticed a side entrance door. I mentioned it to Dad and he said, “Oh yeah, I’ve seen it before. In fact, I’ve seen real people, not actors, come in that door.” If you don’t watch tv you won’t even get why this is funny! It’s a reference to the stupid auto commercials where they state clearly “these are real people, not actors,” which is just stupid. (Actors aren’t real people?? Lol.) Anyway, Dad never disappoints. Filing this under #ShitMyDadSays!



























I hope no one gets their panties in a bunch over that last one. The Facebook page that posted it got some really rude comments. People need to lighten up a bit and stop getting so offended over little things that, when you think about it, really don’t matter at the end of the day. Get some tickle back in that funny bone and have a little laugh. Laughs are free, fun, and make you feel good!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Aunt Debbie

Breathe & Be

Just be you, my friend.

Be always true, to the end.

Have integrity. Walk your own path.

Hold your head high, walk with class.

Dance barefoot, sing a song.

The days become short, rather than long.

Breathe your troubles away.

They really don’t matter, at the end of the day.

Time will run out for us all,

So do what you can, make that call.

Live life to the fullest. Live with glee.

Just breathe. Just be.

Copyright Being Aunt Debbie