Mother & Family

Tonight my family took me out for dinner and some shopping. My family being both of my children, both of my grand children, my “other daughter” and my Dad. It was an early Mother’s Day gift as everyone was able to make it and Sunday would have been hectic with the Mother’s Day crowd.

We had a nice dinner at Chili’s and it was a good night for all. We laughed and chatted and the grand babies were especially good. Doodle Bug had a blast and everyone in the restaurant noticed her too. D.M. didn’t get noticed much because he was kind of hid between his mommy and grandpa. Doodle Bug was out in the isle in a high chair. She was laughing and carrying on with her silly faces, howling and sudden outbursts of laughter. She noticed some deflated balloons that were stuck on the ceiling above her. She kept looking up and grinning that big grin of hers. What a kick in the pants! The food and the service was great! We all had a good time.

My family gave me a very nice Mother’s day card with C.F.’s normal “congratulations” remark he writes in all cards, and a Walmart gift card stuffed inside. After we finished at Chili’s, we went shopping at Walmart. I had both grand babies in the cart and they were having a blast making loud grunts and listening to their voices echo down the isles. It was amusing. Doodle Bug left with her mommy and daddy. Toward the end, D.M. was getting tired of shopping and began grabbing things off the racks. That was our cue to get done and go home.

Nights like these make me realize how lucky I am to have such a wonderful family. I mean, I know how great they are and I know they love and appreciate me. It’s just really nice to have a night out with them without the drama; without all the stuff that on most days compels me to rip my hair out by the roots. It was a night for Mother & Family.

Wish You Were Here….

I really miss you. I wish you were here. I wonder how long it will be before I see you again. It’s lonely here sometimes and I wish I could just talk to you. I wish I could talk to you in person. It would be nice to hear your voice. I can’t just pick up the phone and call you. We communicate but it’s hard being so far, far away from each other. Some day maybe we will be closer, although we will never be closer at heart than we are now. We’ve been through a lot together and will surely be through much more. I’m hoping you know that I’ll always be here for you, as I know you will always be there for me. After all, we are family and will always be. Sisters forever. To the end. In my heart, always. I wish you were here.

Spinning My Wheels….

I feel like I’m spinning my wheels these days. There’s too much going on around me. I can’t concentrate for very long. When I am home alone, I get a lot done. I don’t accomplish much when there are others here. There are too many distractions, too many voices. I cannot get done what needs to be done. I must try to focus and keep on schedule. I must demand that others respect that I am a work at home mom! They must let me work!

I’m Watching Them….

You’ve seen them. I’ve seen them. In fact, I see them every time I go somewhere with my daughter, S.R. They usually make me laugh. You know who I mean. Those men who stare at girl’s asses….

I’ve watched guys practically trip over their own feet, watching my daughter walk by. I’ve seen some run into other people because they are looking at her rear end. I’ve seen old men gawk. I’ve seen middle-aged men stare. I’ve seen guys in their 20’s (same as my daughter) watch in admiration as she walks by. I’ve seen men with their wives or girlfriends do the same, only to be elbowed in the ribs by their better half. I’ve even seen young boys, teens and even pre-teens, drooling as she passes by.

I have ‘busted’ them all by laughing out loud at them in the store, on the street, wherever we may be. They usually look down or away quickly because they were caught! It’s actually quite funny, but at the same time disrespectful of women. But boys will be boys, I suppose.

Tuesday, S.R. and I had some errands to run in W. Plains. We had just walked into Walmart, grabbed a cart and went on our way, when I noticed this creepy guy coming in the door. There was just something about him that caught my eye. When he saw my daughter, who happened to be walking away, her back to him, he was staring at her ass like….gosh I can’t even explain how he was looking at her. It was just plain creepy. It wasn’t funny or even slightly amusing like many times it is. It was just plain creepy. I wanted to punch him in the face.

I started to walk a bit faster so I could be closer to S.R. I didn’t like this guy looking at her that way. He sure wasn’t letting up. When he finally looked away from S.R., he saw me looking directly at him. I was pissed. It took him quite a few seconds to take his eyes away from mine. I was glaring at him and as he passed me, I was shaking my head slowly from left to right, as if to say “don’t you even.” Of course, I didn’t realize I was doing this until after he was gone. I watched for him throughout the entire store, and even in the parking lot when we were finished. I was very uncomfortable, to say the least, wondering what this guy would do if he had opportunity….the pervert.

I’m watching them. All of them. I hope you’ll watch them too. Protect your children, your mothers, daughters, sisters, aunts, yourself….and protect your boys too. You just never know about people these days.

Sadness

Sadness floods my heart tonight as my son and his long-time girlfriend are separating. The sadness is not in the separation so much, but in the fact that my grand daughter will be affected by this. She’s in the middle, as all children are when parents separate. The sadness surrounding the separation is more about the years spent together and events lived through. So many years were invested in this relationship and for it to just end like this makes me want to cry. I’m hoping that they will still be friends and do what’s best for my grand daughter. She deserves that much and more. The sadness is overwhelming when I think too much so this post is becoming quite unbearable. Tomorrow is another day…perhaps things won’t look so bleak.