Have you ever experienced someone treating you as if you were scum of the Earth? Has anyone ever talked down to you or insinuated that you weren’t a good person? I have. I have been treated this way for several years by someone and it has been suggested to me that I cut ties with that person. I can’t see myself doing that because of another person who means the world to me.
I’m not a bad person. I have made mistakes, as everyone has but never mistakes of such magnitude that would make people think I was a bad person. I have regrets, as most people do. I’m definitely not perfect. I have a bit of an attitude when it comes to certain things. I am opinionated. I despise being told what to do. I curse like a sailor. I have little to no patience with drama and bullshit. I sometimes have a short temper. When I was a kid I cut school and got caught stealing. I made prank calls with friends. I got drunk with friends when I was a teenager. I’m definitely flawed; no ands, ifs or buts about it.
But no matter how flawed, I have a big heart. I am very sensitive; empathetic and empathic. I feel other people’s pain and it drains me. I care too deeply about the people in my life. If you cry you will not cry alone because I will cry with you. I am honest and trust-worthy. I am loyal. I would never hurt a child. I have never killed anyone. I don’t do drugs. I’m not an alcoholic. I wear a seatbelt in my car and I always insist others wear one too if they are in my car. I try to show everyone respect until they disrespect me. I love animals. I’m not a bully. I try to help other people if I can. I say please and thank you. I taught my kids to say please and thank you. I’ve been a caregiver most of my life. I try not to judge anyone, but if you’re an asshole, you bet your ass I will judge you on that alone! I’m frugal and I live a simple life. I don’t need expensive things, and I appreciate everything I have.
Regardless of what anyone thinks of me, I am still me. I will walk my own truth and I won’t look back at those people who have judged me unfairly.
I know who I am, and I’m a good person.
Being Aunt Debbie 
First of all, thank you for this great post. We have a lot in common dear.
For he fist question you asked, the answer is yes and still am EVERY F****** DAY.
I too try to think that I’m a good person, but when I look at my daily deeds, I’m not very satisfied of what I see. But I think you are. Stay positive and do your best.
Hugs
😍
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But when you look at your daily deeds, are you doing bad things? Are you hurting others? Are you behaving in a bad way towards people? I’m pretty sure you’re a good person! It’s really hurtful when others treat us badly but you know you’re not a bad person!! Just as I know I’m not a bad person. Life sucks sometimes. People suck sometimes! Hugs to you too! Thanks for reading.
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you’re right , thank you Deb.
Great post again 👍
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I have had some people make me feel bad about myself, even though I know I’m that kind of untrustworthy or bad person that they think I am. I’m not necessarily mad at them, but it just hurts more than anything. I’ve always been able to make friends with most people, and I like to know that they find something in me they like. There’s nothing we can do about what others think of us, I guess. We just have to know that we aren’t what they think we are and be able to live with that and accept ourselves and be proud of who we are, hold our heads high. We’re not living lives that we should be ashamed of. So, I would just not associate with that person, if it’s possible for you to do that. Spend as little time as possible around them. Are you talking about D’s guardian, by any chance?
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Yes, I am speaking of the person you mentioned. I cannot distance myself because of D. I know I’m a good person but somehow I always feel that she thinks I’m bad or that I have done something. I have some recent light shed on the subject I will share with you when we have lunch! 😉 Thanks for reading!
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Can’t wait to hear it! 🙂
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