What’s Eating Aunt Debbie?

There’s a lot on my mind these days. Most of which you probably don’t want to hear about. Aside from the current political situation, which has me wanting to scream, there are a few other things on my mind.

First, I’ve just not had the motivation to write. I don’t know why. I have a lot of ideas, including notes I have jotted down for future reference. I can’t even bring myself to sit down on a daily basis and read the blogs I follow. I’m just lost…basically going through the motions. I just don’t have any motivation to do anything.

I had my 2nd Covid vaccine on Tuesday so in 2 weeks I am getting my hair cut! I’m so sick of this mop that’s been growing for over a year! I was worried that I’d be sick, like some people do after their 2nd shot. I was a little more achier than normal and my arm hurts like a mother, but it wasn’t too bad. Of course, I started taking Tylenol every 8 hours the day before my appointment, and made sure to stay hydrated. I think that helped.

Recently, I was diagnosed with lymphedema and was referred for lymphedema therapy. Of course, my insurance won’t cover it so I had to apply for financial aid. I finally got the financial aid and made the appointment. Turns out I really don’t have lymphedema – yet. If left untreated this will turn into lymphedema. I got a massage that will help get my lymphatic system moving as it should, and I was taught how to do this myself as well. The therapist wrapped my legs, showing me how to do it, and I was on my way. I will see her again next week. I’m hoping for another massage! Snort!

I find myself thinking more and more about my past self. You know, the person I used to be. I used to be a cross-country backpacker, a great cook, a soap and bath & body maker, and a jewelry maker. I can’t do any of those things anymore. I can’t stand, sit, or walk for long periods of time so all of these things are very difficult, if not impossible for me to do. I’d give anything to just be able to take a freakin’ walk!

But I am grateful for everything I have. I have a roof over my head, a wonderful family, great friends, fur babies who give me headbutts and cuddles, and I can still walk, albeit with crutches and very slowly. I have my Dad who is my comic relief and I swear, the best thing is when Dad and I think of the same funny thing at the same time, and we don’t have to say a word because we know exactly what the other is thinking!

I’m going to focus on the good in my life. I mean, I try to do that anyway but I’ve been a bit down this past few weeks and I need to pull myself out of this slump! I need to find something that motivates me and snap out of it! There used to be plenty of things in my life that motivated me but it seems like those things are lost or just hiding from me.