Ashamed

I used to feel ashamed that I was (and still am) on Medicaid. I never dreamed I’d end up disabled and dependent on anyone, let alone State Aid. It’s not my fault. I busted my ass at several jobs along the way and my last was self-employment. I had my own home business and busted my ass trying to make a living. In the end, over a decade later, I had to close my business because I just couldn’t do the work. I had to jump through hoops just to get on SSI, but I qualified for Medicaid after they verified my medical need.

So, here I sit. I am on SSI and receive a small retirement income, but the combination of the two still isn’t enough to live on if I were to live alone. I get SNAP (Food Stamps), but that’s not enough for an entire month. Seriously.

As I was saying, I used to feel ashamed that I receive any kind of aid because of the judgemental bullshit people spew. Some seem to think that “people can get a job instead of relying on taxpayers” blah, blah, blah. You’ve probably heard it all. No, what I’m ashamed of now is not that I’m on State Aid but the fact that our fucking worthless piece of shit asshole so-called president has made sure to strong-arm his party into compliance to pass that Big Beautiful Bill, that isn’t beautiful at all! So many cuts will be underway, and millions of people are going to lose whatever help they get because of it. I may lose what I get, and then what do I do? I know many people are worse off than I am, but I can’t afford to pay out of pocket for doctor visits, or the medications I need to be able to function. With soaring prices, it will be harder than ever on my measly income.

Does the Republican Party care? Hell no. They’re more worried about DJT calling them names or removing them from committees or whatever the hell they think he can do to them. Why don’t they just grow a pair and stand up to him? I think they actually like the fact that they (Republicans) have control and not the Democrats. They will do anything to keep that control. But you know what? They’re going to be voted out and replaced with Democrats come the primaries. Good. I’m sick of their bull shit. I could go on and on about what they’re doing, but that’s another post.

This post is about how ashamed I am of Republican politicians, DJT, Republican voters, and yes, even the Democrats, for allowing such a deplorable man to run for POTUS. I’m ashamed of this country for allowing that man to take such a hold on people. I’m ashamed of people for letting him brainwash them. I’m ashamed that they’re so stupid they can’t think for themselves and SEE what he is doing.

If you voted for that piece of shit, then I’m ashamed of you, too.

Just. WHY?

I have spent the last week getting my new laptop set up exactly the way I want it. I hate when they put all the extra fluff that is of no importance to me. I hate all the extra gadgets and programs that start when you first turn on the laptop, the Edge browser, the fact that every time I walk away I have to sign back in, etc. All those things I had to delete and/or change settings. I had to make Google my primary search engine and Chrome my primary browser. It took the entire week to find all the settings I was familiar with on my old laptop. Piece of cake, that one was…until it started to slow down like a dead woman.

So now I sit trying to think of something to write about. The only thing I can think of at the moment is the fact that Donald Trump has been indicted and he is still up to the same ol’ bullshit. When things don’t go his way and he points fingers and calls people names like a damn 10-year-old. He says he’s going to stay in the race. Yay. Lucky us. I can hardly wait to go through another freaking 4 years of his childish behavior and grandiose personality. I just want to scream! Why would anyone want this criminal to be POTUS again? He breaks the law and his supporters don’t give a shit. Yes, he broke the law! Those documents were classified and belonged to the US Government. He put the entire country at risk; who knows what he sold or gave to Russia or China.

So, what’s going to happen if he’s elected again? I hate to even think about it. He needs to be confined to a prison cell!! Hopefully, he won’t even get the nomination but if he does and he wins…. We are in deep shit. Our future; our children’s and grandchildren’s futures are all at risk, because of what Trump has done and will do.

PS To those of you from other countries who are reading this, please know we are not all idiots. Most of us did not vote for Trump before, and will not ever vote for that toad in the future.

See you on the flip side…

aunt-debbie

45 Reasons…

In March of this year, I began writing an extensive post titled, “45 Reasons NOT To Reelect Trump.” After hour upon hour of research and fact-checking, I realized that I had 75 reasons and FACTS, which greatly surpassed the 45 intended, so I stopped. Since then, that list of reasons has surely doubled, if not tripled. I just don’t have the energy to keep up. 

12 days from now we go to the polls, and many have already voted via early voting or mail-in ballots. I pray that Joe Biden can pull this off because, in my opinion, we are worse off now than we have been in decades and Trump has had a huge hand in that. He has brought out the worst in us. He has lied to the American people time and time again. He downplayed a virus that has killed over 200,000 Americans and we are nowhere close to seeing an end. We are lacking competent leadership and while some may be asking if Joe Biden is up to the task, I think he is. I know he would do a better job than Trump. In fact, my 12 year old grandson would do a better job than Donald J. Trump.

I’m just tired of listening to a whiny-ass, adolescent, bully of a man pretending to be President of this great country. When things don’t go his way, he attacks people. When someone disagrees with him, he fires them. Instead of answering the tough questions, he has a tantrum and walks away. We need a President who answers the tough questions because that’s his job! During this pandemic, he left decisions to individual states’ governors. We need a President who LEADS, not one who passes the buck. We don’t need one who resorts to name-calling and attacks on his opponent’s family members. We need a strong, yet kind LEADER, not one who is constantly playing the blame-game.

I could go on and on but I don’t have the energy. 2020 has drained me. I have lost faith in people that I thought I knew. And it goes way beyond a difference of opinion. When someone you adore makes racist remarks or says something without empathy or compassion, it rips my heart apart. I have to remove myself from their orbit. That’s all there is to it. I have to save my own sanity.

You may think, “Damn Liberal,” “Libtard,” or whatever, which makes you just as childish as Trump. This is not a ‘party’ issue. I am a Democrat BUT I have voted Republican. I vote based on FACTS and RECORDS. I vote based on who I think would do a better job. I didn’t vote for Trump in 2016 and I won’t vote for him in November. 

I look forward to the day of strong leadership, complete sentences, more working than tweeting, and more empathy and compassion. I look forward to NO MORE Trump TV, and a POTUS who knows his facts, supports science, doesn’t mock a soul. I look forward to a President who respects others, regardless of their skin color, religion, status, or job. 

Honestly, I don’t think this country can take 4 more years of Donald Trump. Off to watch the debate. Last time, 5 minutes was all I could handle.